warning: this might make you feel terrible.

a little over a year ago jon foreman did an interview with air one radio. i know, i know i am obsessed with jon foreman. yadda yadda yaddda, whatever. settle in for the next half hour and watch this.

the man is crazy inspiring and incredibly humble and every time he talks (or writes or sings) it makes me think. there is so much goodness packed into this interview i could probably write 15 different posts on it but i'll start with this: 

toward the end of interview he's asked if he's ever insecure.  

here's a guy who started a surf competition/music festival to raise awareness and funds to help end youth homelessness. a guy who writes songs and performs songs for a living...and actually makes a living at it. a guy who's won a GRAMMY. a guy who has thousands of fans and a verified twitter account. a guy who has played on some of the biggest stages and at some of the biggest festivals in the world. he and his band made a movie about their trip around the world chasing songs for their latest album. and he's got a beautiful wife and daughter and loving family. 

on the surface, he's got every right to be the most secure man on earth. he's successful and he's loved. but he answered with a resounding, "yes, i'm insecure." he followed saying that he just wants to do something that matters...that we live in a technological era where people are so afraid of being bored that we rush from one thing to the next, we click app after app because then we don't have time to stop and think about if what we are doing is worth anything. 

heavy, right? 

it's easier to keep ourselves busy (and probably simultaneously still bored) then to ask ourselves if what we're doing has any value because what if it doesn't? what if we're just spinning our wheels and wasting the little amount of time we're given on this earth? word from the experienced, don't read ecclesiastes when you're questioning the meaning of life.  

i have no answers for you. i start to feel the panic well up in my chest when i think too much about if what i'm doing that has lasting impact in this world and the next, mostly because the answer is probably not. 

really uplifting post, sara. 

maybe we need to stop being so busy just for the sake of being busy and be okay with asking ourselves hard questions even if the answers scare us. you matter. jon foreman matters. i matter. you have purpose for being alive. you're right here, right now and that's what you've got so what are you going to do with it?

xo