the beautiful letdown.

i work part time at a coffee shop. i love the coffee shop atmosphere, i love making (and drinking) specialty drinks, i love my customers. i've only ever worked in locally owned, small shops that are super chill and don't require a uniform or listening to a pre-made mix of music (i'm lookin' at you, sbux).

the owner at the shop is so relaxed she doesn't care if we play music off our own iPod's. music freedom is a phenomenal thing.

since i don't own a portable music device (archaic, i know) i borrowed one from my roommate and filled up that sucker with all my favorite jams.

recently when i was working switchfoot's 'the beautiful letdown' came on and i soaked in the nostalgic goodness as i pulled shots and steamed milk.

as i listened to an album that i've listened to at least 200 times a couple of things struck me:

1. that record is amazing. muscially. lyrically. all of it. it is just a well crafted piece of art. it's truth is transcendent and it doesn't sound dated.
and
2. that album was written when jon foreman was younger than i am now. i know life isn't about comparing yourself to other people and each person's journey is lovely and unique and blah blah blah but sometimes i just can't help but wonder WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE? WHY AM I NOT CREATING BEAUTY LIKE THIS?

i'm just gonna bank on the fact that no one else knows what they're doing either.

xo